We pass in the dark
And like fools never declare
Our undying love
Bedroom AcousticsInspired by the Muse B-side of the same name.
I wake to the sound of Marcél's guitar, his fingers gently strumming the thin strings, each flick precise and deliberate.
I gingerly open my eyes.
I can barely make out the bedside clock; it reads 2:35 am.
I don't move for fear of Marcél stopping his performance. So silent and frozen, I listen to him play.
It's a soothing sound. A refreshing sound.
Full of peace. Serenity.
It makes me feel whole. Makes me feel full. I already feel full.
Beneath the covers I quietly shift my naked body and bring my hands to cup my swollen belly.
Just one more month to go.
One more month before baby sounds fill this room.
I stopped wearing clothes at night because they were too hot. I was too hot because I couldn't sleep. And I couldn't sleep because I have a sack of organs, flesh and soul growing in my womb. My child. My treasure.
I close my eyes and listen to Marcél. Listen to the serenade.
Listen to my heart pound. God, the pounding i
I walk off the beaten path
Ticking clocks and white shadows lie behind
The ebony door in front of me beckons
I push it open and the darkness consumes me
Eyes struggle to adjust
Ears are bombarded with noise and sound
Then all senses focus
And I can see through the black a pale figure
Cautiously I approach, feet silent in the void
Now I am close enough to see, to smell, to touch
The figure is a Body
A Body lying on its back, still and noiseless
A broken mirror stands behind it
The Body's eyes stare above at starless skies
Then its head turns to me
Pupils meet and vision sharpens to its ultimate strength
And I see I see it all
The Body and its Parts
Hollow bones, but not of natural make
Bones of wood, bones of metal, bones of air
Bones forged with knives and heat
Bones that pound and clap and thump
Bones that sound the call of revolution
Bones that map the problems of the world
Bones that beat out existence's final gasp
Flesh rich in its texture
Firsts Among ManyThe first seed was planted with a vision from the Maker.
Their first meeting was in a little town tavern wrought with danger.
Their first battle followed shortly after.
The first story she told was of Andraste and the sad failure of mankind's faith.
His first gift was a little flower, its fragrance strong and sweet that he found outside of Redcliffe.
The first night they spent together was on watch with the red glow of the embers and the brilliant stars as their companions.
Their first hug came after the Fade as they embraced each other joyfully, happy to be alive and free.
His first sign was when he touched her hand and felt a spark travel through his whole body, though he did not realize what it was at the time.
The first scare came with a hurlock's lucky blade, and he spent several hours in worried agony while Wynne worked to save her.
Her first song came after their visit to the Dalish, and its beauty caused his mind to finally acknowledge what his body and soul had been screaming
Execution CommentaryA haiku.
No one knows the cause
Perhaps mushrooms are to blame
But Matt just lost it
Neutron Star CollisionA haiku.
So much freaking cheese
Matt should start a dairy farm
Don't do this again
ShineThe night goes onward
But my thoughts are lodged like stone
Spinning round one central point
A carousel of fear and doubt
Six strings seek to soothe my soul
But the hands that pluck them are my own
So emotion and voice are lost
Only precision, calculation guide my fingers
I think about the two of us
Me and you, now soon three
What have we done here?
What foolishness wrought?
In this life we have conceived
I remember our first meeting
You were broken, needing, wanting
I became your refuge and your life
You needed saving, and so I saved you
And now our child is coming
But we aren't ready
Then again, who is ever ready?
No books or words can ever prepare you
For a parent's loving duty
The last note dies away
I glance upon your sleeping frame
The dark tresses on the pillow
Your swollen belly outlined in the sheets
And my worries start to fade
I lay my guitar down and creep into bed
The creaks I make whisper of money and sex
As I wrap my arms around you
I can feel the warmth of your body
The ScreamConcerning Matthew Bellamy's falsetto.
It's power, raw, unfiltered, untamable
Controlled and steady, cool and calculated
Creation and oblivion in one sound
It pierces ear and mind and soul
Not dull like a butter knife
But hot and sharp like Japanese steel
Notes that float high draw darkness from below
Pitch that gives pleasure with defter touch
Than lovers could ever hope to give
It makes ears sing and hearts dance
The spirit leap and the fingers curl
I hope its master never fails, yet I fear
He'll kill us all with the Scream
BlissFirst kiss, last kill
Calming tea, action thrill
Sunny days, fresh snow
Vanquished weeds, seeds to grow
Two lovers' touch, a prisoner set free
Building a car, climbing a tree
Little red dress, faded blue jeans
One small success, endless dreams
Love and hate, that and this
These are the things that give us bliss
Citizen ErasedWhy must I live like this? Why must it be this way living cursed eternally? Slowly, I walk along the lonely, dead, empty path which stretches out beyond the dusty cloud horizon, the end left unseen to the average human eye. It has felt like for centuries I have lived with this, despite I am very young and I have never lived a century and probably never will. Was I born like this? with This Thing. Its part of me kept hidden internally, anonymous to the outside world. Teach me to cheat. To lie. To cover up. But what shouldn't be shared? Clearly, the truths unwinding like pulling on a stray piece of cotton ripping apart something that was once strong but is now so weak and useless. It pains me so much as it scrapes away at my mind at all my memories, my feelings, and my control over myself.
For one moment, wishing it would just keep a hold so I can feel again. To me there is an impossible legend that is happiness and joy; have I ever felt that, and does it feel good? Does everyone feel it